Turns out you actually have to write blog posts not just in your head…
If you asked me if I'd written any blog posts recently, I'd say yes, but I'd be wrong because I haven't updated this in 3 months. That hasn't stopped me from starting a bunch of blog posts in my head though! I've even written notes on a few of them. And now I have a keyboard where all the letters work, which as you may imagine would be quite helpful in getting blog posts written. However, the computer is a distraction machine so I often end up writing my posts on my tablet anyway 🙃
There's another thing where, I really enjoy the TV microblogging and I didn't really want to write big long thinkpieces about systemic issues here because this is a place where I could take a break from that (fedi is where a lot of my energy for that goes). I think I am going to have to sit and puzzle out if I want to keep that barrier in place. Mostly it has to do with, do I even have the energy to do longform writing about things that have gone on for ages and seem to only be getting worse? It's hard to believe that that will get me to post more when my (and everyone's) mental health is in the ditches these days anyway.
I'm not going to be too hard on myself for this because there are definitely other considerations on top of all that that are affecting my ability to write right now, but I do want to try and get posting here again. Not least because several things I've wanted to talk about don't really fit into my other outlets, either because they're too long for the forum, too "I don't want to deal with social media" for the fedi, etc.
Part of me wants to write a list to keep track, but most of me doesn't like posting lists publicly of things I haven't done yet because frankly, it ends up being demoralizing to me more often than not. With a private list it's just for me so I can use it to track things but can still adapt if I need to. After all, if the fear of shame worked to cure my executive dysfunction/writer's block, it would've done so already—I find the wall is much easier to overcome when I don't put those additional pressures on myself.
So yeah, I'll probably make a list of "posts I wanted to write" and throw it in the drafts folder or something. And if all goes well, you'll hopefully be seeing more in this space eventually!